GTS – Page 255
with you, with you
I wasn’t going to make any big Statement because everyone is doing those, you’ve already heard from a dozen queer creators this week about how they’re gonna keep making stuff, which is great and useful and I’m glad. I feel weird about it because I’ve been doing this long enough that I’ve also already said this, last time we did Exactly This Thing, and I say it constantly every other time shit is going wrong and all I can do about it is keep making art that (hopefully) reminds people this world isn’t as worthless as the powers that be would have us think. But I’ve heard from a few folks that Kidd Commander does mean something to them, and they thought of it a lot this week, which is sort of overwhelming to consider, so maybe I do have something useful to say.
This isn’t the first time loop I’ve written about; every arc so far has been about repetition, The Worst Thing happened and it keeps happening forever, again and again, the tenses all mixed up. A time loop is an apocalypse, and I was wired by the cult I was raised in to think of things in those terms before I could even walk. I don’t know how to look at things through any other lens, my body (and sometimes my brain) thinks the world is ending all the time. From my perspective I am constantly living through apocalypses, either small internal ones or ones that are big enough for other people to notice and be afraid of. They feel mostly the same to me, but the upshot of this is I am also constantly surviving them. Things keep going. I’m still here to repeat myself, eight years later; I am posting this message on my own site because the platforms I posted this to last time this happened are gone. I’ve outlived a lot of stuff when I was really, bone-deep certain I wouldn’t and nobody else would either. You probably will too. However sure you are that This Is The End, I’ve been there, and I’m still here and making pissed off art about time loops and humans.
As I said in the newsletter this year, this comic and site relies on funding, but I would be out here somewhere writing Kidd Commander on my own even if the money things hadn’t worked out. If I’m still alive, I’m still saying this stuff however I can. As it is, I’m stable enough to continue, so I will keep doing what I’ve always done and trying to make a thing to let people know they’re not alone in the dark. I’ve built a little bit of a monolith over the last decade, you can lean against it if you want. That’s why it’s here.
Anyway, on the heels of all that, I’m gonna try reading the comment section again a little earlier than I planned; I don’t know that I’ll be able to respond quite as much as I used to, but maybe it’ll help to think another time loop veteran is listening even if we’re just talking about cartoons. I dunno, that sounds sort of self-centered, but it’s Something I Can Do.
Thank you for reading, please take care <3